The silhouette you made

My heart is so proud.

My mind is so focused.

I see the great things you have done to me.

I place them everywhere in my room.

I appreciate that god led you to my life.

Even sometimes I feel discouraged.

That's the part in the story.

Film Reflection to The Slanted Screen

     

     If you are an Asian, if you work as an actor in America, if you are a male, the documentary film The Slanted Screen tells us the results it will be. 
     When I was watching the film, I just appreciate that I am not one of the Asian actors. Because I am not strong enough to suffer in those situations they were in. The Slanted Screen is a 2006 documentary film written, produced, and directed by Jeff Adachi about the stereotypical depictions and absence of Asian males in American cinema and other media from the silent era to the present day. As an Asian myself, I was annoyed, indeed furious, over what I heard in the film. As matter as fact, I have seen countless American movies in my life. However,the roles of heroes, lawyers, doctors are not for Asian but nerds, bad drivers and Kungfu expert. It seems it is their destiny of their career. Why is so? Because of smaller eyes or skin color? It sounds ridiculous in the country of the kind of FREEDOM. 
      And the funny thing is that all my American friends thought I know Kungfu. Nope! It's not a natural skill or anything for each of Chinese. And when I first got my driving licence, some of them teased me by I am probably a stereotype of "Asian woman driver"! It sounded nothing for me when I first heard it. Because I didn't know the story of it. After then I was pissed off. All Chinese people I have met in America drives not as bad as some LOCAL people I know.Actually, they don't speed; they don't hold a coffee while driving; they don't turn up the music volume to be easily break your eardrum. In a word, every country or every area has a stereotype of a characterization. But it is ridiculous when they exaggerate anything with a magnifier.

One of my favorite Christian songs

Recently I'm so in love with this song!

Better Than A Hallelujah

     -----by Amy Grant

God loves a lullaby

In a mother's tears in the dead of night

Better than a Hallelujah sometimes

God loves the drunkard's cry

The soldier's plea not to let him die

Better than a Hallelujah sometimes

We pour out our miseries

God just hears a melody

Beautiful, the mess we are

The honest cries of breaking hearts

Are better than a Hallelujah

The woman holding on for life

The dying man giving up the fight

Are better than a Hallelujah sometimes

The tears of shame for what's been done

The silence when the words won't come

Are better than a Hallelujah sometimes

We pour out our miseries

God just hears a melody

Beautiful, the mess we are

The honest cries of breaking hearts

Are better than a Hallelujah

Better than a church bell ringing

Better than a choir singing out, singing out

We pour out our miseries

God just hears a melody

Beautiful, the mess we are

The honest cries of breaking hearts

Are better than a Hallelujah

We pour out our miseries

God just hears a melody

Beautiful, the mess we are

The honest cries of breaking hearts

Are better than a Hallelujah

(Better than a Hallelujah sometimes)

Better than a Hallelujah

(Better than a Hallelujah sometimes)